Truth Bearers and Storm Chasers

In our bones, we know.

In our spirit.

The truth.

I don’t mean a belief system. Not an idea created by the mind. Not a passing thought. Not a reaction to something difficult. Not a passing emotion. Not a concession, to bring peace. Not even something you’ve worked for, your whole life, because you thought it was the best thing.

Though it could also be any of those things.

The truth has a different timbre.

It’s at the very center.

It feels like transparency. It FEELS like looking through crystal clear water. So… invisible? No. Transparent is not invisible.

When the light hits the water just right, it is reflected, and both the shadow and light reveal the water’s presence.

Sometimes, if the light and water are just right, we see a rainbow. Many colors hidden within it.

But then a second later… “wait. Did I just see that? Did I feel it? It was right there.”

Can you imagine touching transparency? Not touching water. Holding the FEELING of the transparency itself.

The truth is not invisible. It’s clear.

And it feels like love.

It feels right.

When you find it, it’s like finding the right string to pull, to untangle a giant knot.

But sometimes you are the only one who feels it. And that’s really hard. Because it’s not black or white. It has no defined color at all. People like to be able to delineate color.

So sometimes it is not understood. By anyone else.

But everyone’s feelings and opinions are valid. So shouldn’t we listen? Yes, we should. Everyone is bringing such an important feeling experience. They are right. They are all describing a unique and important color.

Just as water and clear crystal reveal all the colors of the rainbow when the light hits them just right, so does the truth.

Still, sometimes you have to be the only one who feels it. Even if everyone else says you are wrong, and tries to explain you out of it. If you could only see it through their lense… such a beautiful color it is! And you love them… so you really want to.

That’s really hard.

And sometimes the truth is so deep inside you, perhaps at the top of a jagged mountain which must be climbed, or at least mapped out, in order to reach it … but no one wants or cares to. And yet it’s existing whether they or you, want it to or not.

That’s really lonely.

Sometimes there is nothing you can do, except stand in it. While the storm rages around you, and you are hit over and over again with the waves of people’s beautiful advice and intentions, and drenched in their disappointment and hurt, when you can’t change. And you are flooded with self doubt and shame. Sometimes all you can do is stand in it. The truth is who you are. You can’t change it.

You just have to stand strong, look your doubt in the face and say “I Am”.

There is nothing else you can do.

As you realize that you are all of those colors, and yet none of them. You are only you. And “You” feels like love. It feels like freedom.

This is #Aquarius

Those who see all of the colors, and will lovingly sacrifice all that they are for the rainbow of incredible humanity that is our world.

And yet, must stubbornly hold that clear crystal of truth. And die before they let it go.

Because they can’t let it go. It’s who they are.

The truth will reveal itself at all costs. It is the nature of life, and it is unstoppable.

Aquarius. It can be a hard ride. The storm chasers. Yet also chased by storms. Drawn like magnets, into the eye.

Revolutionaries, whether they want it or not.

We all have this within us.

May we hold the unique crystal of our spirit, and all free each other with our courage to love.